another bad idea

So five weeks out I've decided to consider trying to do Ride Across Indiana this year. The training program is ambitious, obviously, but not so much that it's undoable - if I was in any sort of shape. But I'm not. Getting back on the bike this week has been painful and disappointing. Of course I'm only two days in, but it has been a completely joyless experience, which is something I'm not quite used to. If things go OK (not good, just OK) for the rest of the week I'm going to attempt to do 70-some miles Sunday. It's a really horrible idea. I struggled with 28 just yesterday. And yet.. (Add this to the long list of "I'm going to do this (but actually I'm not" posts.)